I found this stored on my computer. It was something I wrote a year ago, but nothing like starting off a new blog with an extremely personal post, right?
“Follow your dreams”
… Advice we here all the time, but how often do you really listen to it?
It is amazing how you can feel so close to someone that is so far, and so far from someone that is so close.
Yes, big events change a person’s life, but what is more amazing, is how the smallest, most seemingly insignificant event can serve to be so cataclysmic.
Life is like a box of chocolates. You never knew what you are gonna get.
Live and let live. We all get one life. Enjoy it. Be good. Love. Be happy. Follow your soul.
Close your eyes and remember your inner child. What did they dream of? How did they see the world? How would they advise you? Your inner child is your truest self. It is the self untainted by nature. People spend a lifetime not knowing what they want because so many factors enter a person’s life as they grow older and responsibilities come their way. Yet, you still have the power to make the decisions that are right for you while you are still young. So, close your eyes, and remember.
If I had the strength and the wisdom I did now, then I would have followed my inner self. Instead, I went against my nature… To find something “practical”, to “fit in” with society. Yet, I always tried to stay true to myself, so I never truly “fit in” and I never truly chose “practical” decisions.
I did not believe in myself. I believed in myself when I was younger, but then my “dreams” seemed a fairytale- impossible. Maybe they were, but I should have at least tried.
Thank God I realized this now and not later. I am still young enough to follow my dreams, and now I believe in myself more. I may fall flat on my face. I may read this when I am 40 and say: stupid girl, wake up. Stupid girl, get serious about a career and a husband and a family.
But I know, that if I do not try, I will always wonder… because even now when I look back at my youth, I wish I tried. I never really try at anything. I look for the “easy way’.
But then I close my eyes. And I remember what my younger self would have said to me if she had met me when I was in middle school, high school, and college.
She would have said: Stupid girl. You had so much potential. Why did you waste it? Our life could have been great, or at least somewhat great. Why did you settle?
After having made the move to Italy, I am so happy that I did it. I feel proud of myself for the first time.
Bottom line, don’t be afraid to follow your dreams.